Fear 2.0: The Slow Path

War is not heroic. War is not exhilarating.

It is dark. It is dreadful. It is a thing of sorrow and gloom.
That is why people fear war. That is why people choose to avoid it.

If I intimidated you then I did my job to get this going in the right direction. I'm not about to stop or backdown. This has always been about me and you, and not him. Somehow, somewhere, someone needs to change that. I've got a mean streak a mile long and I am never going away. The knowledge that you fear and are intimidated by my is merely empowering and shows exactly who is truly in the wrong here.

It's a chess game and I'm in for the long haul. You are not the only one that knows how to play the long game. You want to throw curveballs? Cool, I can deal with that. I'll start throwing punches. I'm not backing down from you, your friends or anyone. It's time for the long game, you know how to play it better than anyone, but I've been playing this game with you just as long. I'll see it to the end, and I don't plan on losing. You're attempt at intimidation is amusing and shows me exactly how pathetic you truly are. It's just another pawn in this game, you'll discard as soon as it meets your needs. I'm about to make your life hell, and I will have no sympathy, regret or compunction a about doing so. You want to cut out my heart, I'm gonna eat yours.

I'm not a nice person, and sometimes I don't have to be. Everything you've taken from me, can and will one day be taken from you, I'm willing to wait and be patient and take the slow path, because there is only one ending that will ever apply.

Current Mood: Merely Annoyed, Determined.

Fear has no brains; it is an idiot.

Comments

Cowabunga.

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Respite on the Spitalfeilds.

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The Sinner.

I make no Bones that I’m a bad person, and I’m someone who has made mistakes. I take pride in being the bad guy, the villain and most of all a willing sinner. I will take full responsibility for all the things I have done. It’s the one thing I didn’t do I was convicted on. But that was my choice, when I make the gates of St. Peter or the gates of hell I can be judged. After all I have a throne waiting. I hold no illusions as to where I’m headed. The thing is people like you will join me there. I’ll see you on the seventh layer reserved for betrayers. The sad part is that if you remained a fucking ghost I would not have had an issue with you. But you had to make it fucking personal. Father Time has a long memory, and I don’t forget anything. You have some serious skeletons rattling in your closet and I can destroy you. I’m already dead, I’ve already been killed. One shot, Boom. Children’s aid won. Nothing you or anyone else can do, can hurt me. You can only hurt those I care about. And ...

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