Nikk's Blog of doom!!!

please dig yourself a bigger hole... your stupidity is matched by your controlling behaviors... you play games... i can't even find myself angry at you anymore... you're pathetic and playing mind games.... go find someone else to leech off of... wait... no one else will have you.... Current Mood: Amused by Stupidity. Current Music: Nice Boys, Guns and Roses. I'm not a nice boy and I never was.

it just take's two fucking seconds for someone to totally set me off.... fucking rigid bullshit... you're the one who lied... you're the one who cheated... you're the fucking reason both of our live's fucking suck!!! you have no idea what i would do to you if i didn't have myself set to such a high moral fucking standard!!! i fucking Hate you.... so fucking much... i wish you would just go away... stop playing the fucking Mindgames... you're the one who's gonna get Crucified... i have pateince but i'm getting to a fucking breakpoint... No more games No more lies... thanks for the ammunition... your fuckin done. Current Mood: Fucking hostile. Current Music: Mama Kin, GnR

nothing but silence this weekend... still waiting.... Current Mood: Annoyed. Current Music: Shotgun Blues, Guns and Roses

what really is the defintion of family these days anyways? is the nuclear family still the accepted norm or should we consider family as an entirely new animal these days? Current Mood: Annoyed. Current Music: Run to the Hills, Iron Maiden.

had a great weekend and got what i needed to do today done.. have to still clear up some bullshit but like everything else it takes time... not entirely pleased with current aspects of the universe, i mean why are some people so fucking two faced? it would be a lot easier to find peace outthere and inside if people were honest with each other instead of machinations agianst each other and playing games. Whatever, Current Mood: Conflicted. Current Music: Wretched Ways, Betrayer. http://www.459.betrayer.ca/cgi-bin/dl.cgi?id=005

i fucking hate people who are hypocritical mother fuckers.... it's nothing like fucking going after a person for something and then doing yourself.... of course it's nice to keep things status quo until you find a time to crawl up my ass. whatever. Current Mood: Do I look a little Pissed off? Current Music: Sweet Child Of Mine, Gun's and Roses.

i have absolutly no idea of what to do with myself this week..... it's march break and it's nice outside.. maybe i'll spend the rest of the week just hanging out and playing guitar.... hopefully i get the phone call i'm half heartly expecting... (see me not holding my breath.) this would have been a great week to fuck off to windsor if it wasn't for the fact that i'm fuckin' overtired. i've gotta get up there some time in april.... the job search continues.. kinda hoping i get the job i interviewed for yesterday but time will tell and we will see.... sick of hitting fucking brick walls... but still trying to think positive. maybe something will come of this Toronto Children's Aid job. Current Mood: Frustrated Current Music: Saturday nights alright for fighting, NickelSUCK/Kid Rock

it's a nice place to be, so tired last night i got home and dropped everything... i guess these are the sacrifices on has to make to make the future brighter for him and his own, i know one thing... i might hate st. catherines, but i hate toronto and the big city idiocy more... i might work there but i'll never live there.... hopefully i get a job in which it's easy to commute... or something here... but toronto sucks ass... i hated the whole week.... toronto is not somewhere to raise a child... no wonder i ended up as fucked up as I am... i was exhausted last night... it's amazing how far the body can put itself through when properly motivated... my skull is still ringing... need another good nights sleep...don't miss living in Toronto at all... didn't even bother with old freinds when i was there... they are part of another life... not one i want to return to... i have things to live forward now... if i'm gonna get drug into the abyss worse than i curre

a few decent bites this week... really hoping to get this school job out in pickering... be nice to work with in an all male school/group home position... a place to have a brand new start.... toronto si less than impressing as usual... can't belive i spent 3 days in theis shithole... doesn't impress me as much as it used to, there's not the attraction their used to be. it's a long week, i don't even get to go home till tommorow cuz i've got another interview out in the falls... so far, so good, so what? Current mood: Tired Current Music:Ain't My Bitch, Metallica.

looks like another fun weekend.... might even be a long one... gonna just hang out in Town instead of going away... no point... the toys and the movies are here for the most part... should be an enjoyable weekend... managed to pay down some bills and get my haircut this week so all in all i'm happy... another job interview today and a few more next week... hopefully something comes thur soon... sick of sitting on my ass all day.. i didn't go to college and university to do nothing with my life... almost everything's been accomplished now if i can get a decent job and take care of me and my own and their best intrests i will be happy with my life. Cheers, see you later. Current Mood: Very Happy, looking forward to tommorow.