this holiday sucks... i am so pissed off and depressed i cannot belive that a phone call would set me off like that but it did... more than i thought it would.. i thought i was prepared for the emotions inside... guess not.
this city is starting to get to me... every day is just like yesterday.. maybe it's time to get moving on agian... it's obvious the longer i stay the longer the stink of st. catherines is going to attach itself to me.. i have absolutely nothing to do here... i hate to say it but i was better off in windsor.. the mindgames weren't so heavy... and what the fuck is up my Lawyers ass... 3 fucking months... time to cause some fucking shit... Current Mood: Fucking annoyed by everything. Current Music: Leaving Las Vegas, Sheryl Crow.
3 fucking months... this is becoming bullshit... guess i'm not going trick or treating tuesday. maybe there is a better solution than lawyers, words and bullshit... Current Mood: Angry, frustrated, Apathy, take yer fucking pick. Current Music: A Change Would DO you good, Sheryl Crow.
this city is fucking weird...i can't stand it... i ran into the lunatic's X today.. that was an interesting conversation... i mean you gotta love someone who sits on her pc all day while the television is a babysitter. smoking in the house is always a charmer too.
Weird night last night.. some broad asking me personal information i choose not to divulge... fucking lunatics in this city.. only a handful of people know me and then a handful more lunatics think they do.. fucker's can't talk to me.. i'll just clam up.. it's not any of their buisness anyways... people talking like they know me... it's so confusing... i knew this shit would happen when i returned... the mental mindgames continue... i'm starting to remeber why i left this place... i know for sure why i said back then i was never coming back... i'll gaurentee you something tho... i didn't come back for you. Current mood: Confused. Current Music: My Vietnam, Pink.
what a wonderful day... it's pissing rain outside and i have to go to brock to write a fucking paper... so not in a good mood couln't sleeep last night.. having some real nocturanal problems of late.... i mean all this shit in my head and i can't get rid of it.. i worry too much maybe.. i think alot of it is just anger and personal demons brought to the surface because of her. whatever.. i'll deal with it.. same way as always.. just keep pushing thru and doing what's right. fuck her. Current Mood: wet. Current Music: Anarchy In the UK, Megadeth. p.s. i really need to change the songs in my mp3 player.
Baby i hope u got some ammunition your hiding somewhere because i just found out what's been said... i wish i wasn't such a moral person.. if i didn't take such a high moral stance i would rip you to peices... what you said isn't forgivable... what you've done even less so... at least till saturday i could always love you in retrospect now all the love i had for is gone... hatred remains. my love is now reserved for that who he matters most. for you a black hole of apathy.... you sure know how to twist the screws don't you? well this time it won't be the one who has to suffer...welcome to hell... i won't back down this time... and i don't have to. Current Mood: Driven, Hurting and Pissed Off. Current Music: Of Mice and Men, Megadeth
my fucking patince is wearing thin... i came back to a fucking blizzard at 8 am yesterday to deal with this shit.. i was having fun in windsor.. at least it gives me an excuse this week to create some turbulence. it's pretty bad when i want to walk away but know that i can't. is that what you fucking want.. me dead and gone? too bad I'm not built that way... Bitch. Current Mood: Rage Current Music: Megadeth, Youthansia.