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Not Ready to Die.

For all the time i have been cast as it, I don't mind playing the Villain.... I don't think i am one.. and I for sure Know inc certain Situations I am not the villain, But if playing the villain will keep someone Innocent from being hurt more than i will willingly play the part of the greater evil, even if it's the one on the other side of the battle that is at the end of the day the truly misguided one... I am strong enough to be the darker knight, a grim protector. there will come a day soon when judgement will be at hand.. and when he is old enough he will one day be told everything... At that moment and only at that moment alone he can choose who was really the villain, But for the Moment I don't mind the wait.... at this point things are moving forward in the exact structure and manner that they are supposed to and as the flames burn higher over your illusions and make believe it will make my vindication that much easier....but for the moment i will torture myself with this patience rather than giving into my anger and base desires to destroy you... it's easier to destroy you in court rather than to destroy your soul.... that day will come as well.. but i will not be the architect of the destruction of your soul... but make no mistake it will still come at my hand. As long as I live and Have to fight, I'm Not ready to Die.

Current Mood: Determined.
Me, I know where I stand. And I don't worry about it. Because when it's over. When they're all dead and the war is over... there'll still be one bullet left. To clear all accounts.

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