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The War XI:War Zone IV

The War Continues, i have slept and I am am less edgy than I was before, but then the reality hit's me that I have another 3 more months of nothingness, more time to plan but more time for these people to put up barriers and weapons in front of me.. I have to be proactive I am not a soilder in peacetime... I am a warrior in a bloody battle in which when it comes to my destiny and my soul there will only be one winner..as much as they attempt to distance themselves from the fact that their are two concurrent court matter's in front of us, they are intertwined, trying to tell me that you know the rules better than I do.. better fucking make sure you have them in front of you like I do at the touch of a button... this is a battle instigated by one who was once very close and meant everything to me, now all i can comprehend for her is absolute hatred, but she has played the fucking system like pawns...Daddy's little girl has eliminated me and gotten exactly what she wants by destroying me.... but I am still that Little Man's father and I won't be denied forever. the longer this goes the more Light at the end of the Fucking tunnel grows wider... I will see you In hell but I will go to my fate willingly meanwhile you will be dragged down to the firey pits for destroying a man.... Of course there is the fact that I've already lived a life of constant Battle..the last 12 years at your hand...more from the system that won't ever let one of their own ever get ahead... One might Consider that punishment enough.

Current Mood: Hate.
Current Music: Within Temptation - Sinéad
You don't know what it's like to hate. To have your entire life become nothing more than an expression of hate. Nothing else matters. Nothing else can compare. Or taste as sweet.

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