The Ninth Circle Of Hell.

Predictably, without a doubt the System Fails again, November is my next court date... Can the wheels on this bus stall any more? the last week all the positive energy that I had received from my life has been torn from my fucking bones. only anger remains against my betrayer and the ones that assisted that betrayal, from her I am not surprised but the fact that it was a concentrated effort assisted by the state and now when their stories do not match and their games are falling apart does it become clear that They will not allow me to win because IF I win and prove them all fucking wrong.. this they cannot allow... so they stall, they play games, they don't allow a man to have his freedom, because without freedom one is dead.. It's about the game, it's what funds the system, why make a decision or have the wheels of justice move any faster when you can stick something in the wheel and make it grind to a halt... I'm used to the stall tactics, I'm used to the fact that If something can be avoided it will be avoided for as long as humanly and legally possible... I will be looking down from the seventh Circle of my Violent Hell... while you are in the Ninth Circle.... I am sure you know exactly what that hole is reserved for.

Current Mood: Angry.
I want you to remember my hand at your throat. I want you to remember the one man who beat you.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Respite on the Spitalfeilds.

I get to hurt, that’s my curse. I feel everything. And it never goes away. It doesn’t matter if it’s peace of strife. I always miss him. He’s always there buried not so deep inside. Along side that in my heart lies hope. But right now, the price is simply too high to have him in my life. I’m not good with authority or conditions. And attempting controlling me has very negative conquences. So yeah, I’ll be here waiting. I should not hurt this much. Or be this sad. But it’s a fucking pain that never goes away except when it is replaced by anger. And I’m trying to fight that emotion off because bad things happen when I’m angry. And thats my secret Cap, I’m always angry. It’s what controls the hulk inside me from taking out an entire city block. I deserved better. This wasn’t the life I was promised. This is for sure not the life I promised my son. That was taken away from me. I’m not to blame. But I’ll be damned if suffers like an adult the way I had to. I will always be here b...

The Sinner.

I make no Bones that I’m a bad person, and I’m someone who has made mistakes. I take pride in being the bad guy, the villain and most of all a willing sinner. I will take full responsibility for all the things I have done. It’s the one thing I didn’t do I was convicted on. But that was my choice, when I make the gates of St. Peter or the gates of hell I can be judged. After all I have a throne waiting. I hold no illusions as to where I’m headed. The thing is people like you will join me there. I’ll see you on the seventh layer reserved for betrayers. The sad part is that if you remained a fucking ghost I would not have had an issue with you. But you had to make it fucking personal. Father Time has a long memory, and I don’t forget anything. You have some serious skeletons rattling in your closet and I can destroy you. I’m already dead, I’ve already been killed. One shot, Boom. Children’s aid won. Nothing you or anyone else can do, can hurt me. You can only hurt those I care about. And ...

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