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A New Hope.



Even when things are frustration central, it is easy to lose focus.. i have decided that it is time to change strategy a little and instead of remaining complacent i am going to out to seek new Life and new oppurtuinitys... yeah i know.. i should use the star trek trailer today but the lego pics fits my mood and the new clear feeling i am having about moving on from a hopeless exsistense which i currently mired under. as owen hart once said... enoughs enough and it's time for a change... enough of the shit hitting the fan and the angry me hitting the wall. frustraions need to come to a close... too many things are bothering me right now.. i had a complicated enough life before.. i do not need a half million hanger's on and added political problems, this isn't what i went to to school for.. this isn't what i chose... there has to be something better out there... i am not going to make another descion out of desperation agian. the next time i make a decision like this i am going to give it some careful thought, i don't want to be old and bitter, and frustrated for the rest of my life.

Current Mood: Still Frustrated but spent afternoon Job searching so I am Hopeful.

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