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Done.


I am just Done with some people in my fucking life. I have my own issues and problems and responsibilities and im sick of being an emotional fucking lap dog for people that are only truly on the outskirts of my fucking life. If I have built a wall between us take that as a fucking hint that I want space. I will forgot your fucking name or that you even exist. I have to chose me no one else will and those that mattered most forgot I existed unless they needed sonething. 

I am always better off alone. I know who watches the casket burn. The people who will be there at the end are already counted. I only need onr hand. Everyone else, let me burn out, ill only fade away.

I'm done being angry for angers sake but im real sick of someone dragging me into their drama and them complaining I dont care enough or pay attenion to them. I don't do anyone else's drama I have enough of my own. Also, I DONT CARE. I never have and I never will. Its easier that way. Blame me and let me be the villian. You'll be another one in a long line of victims that claim somehow something you did was my fault. Its better when im the dark shadow in the past. Its even better when I dont exist to people that dont exist to me in this life at all. I move past. I forget. 

I've forgotten more people in my life than I will ever care to fucking admit. Some of them were blood. If you give me a fucking reason to close that door, I will not only slam it shut i will seal it so goddamn tight it will never see sunlight agian.

Enjoy being forgotten. Because you will be.

If someone doesnt bring peace to your life and only creates fucking drama what is the fucking point of that person being in your fucking life? I'm done with all that. Be your own drama. Leave mine alone.

When I go quiet on the world, it will not be done out of malice or anger or whatever is roaming around in my head. It will just be a fade to black. I am Done.

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