Nikk's Blog of doom!!!

i was going thru some old papers yesterday and i found some of your old notes and poems you addressed to me.. have we really changed that much or is it the world around us that has passed us by? it seemed simpler and more complex back in those days... i wonder what happened why the attitude changes and the anger comes from.. forever is fleeting i guess... when girls that pretend to be 17 all there lives grow up its a shock to both our systems i guess.... i wonder if the people we were then would be happy with the people we are now.... current mood: introspective, wondering.

few shitty day and now things seem to be going on an upwards keel.. finaly got out of the house and did something for myself last night.... there's basics stocked in the house instead of buying cigarettes i have lots of penuts butter, and alpha bits... gotta do what the responsibilty is.. plus i can always bum a cigarette or get them cheaper than buying tm's these days. hopefully this job on thorold stone near our old apterment works out or this over night position in guelph.. that would be cool.... beer all day in hot summer then sleep then work lolololol..... we shall see.. i'm feeling positive today. Current mood: Positive.

god, i thought i was a fucking asshole... i'm the fucking tooth fairy in comparison. i cannot belive the fucking bullshit that is happening, manuvering and bullshit games is not the way to go about things... i will be vindicated one day soon.. it's not my head your busy fucking up.. soon you will realize that... till then go to hell... and take your bad attitude with you.. Update: no Dice on Fort Erie. Current Mood: Pissed OFF.

today's horrorscope: Virgo: It's time to go back to your original plan. You've been trying to shake things up, but your first idea was the best one.

had another Awesome weekend... and i might be working with something i actually want to do... fort erie? fishing down here on the river would be awesome and it's just the right part of the region to be comfortable with... we shall see.... it's a really good career move if i get it... krusty the clown and milhouse are awesome next time i'll get apu and granpa simpson....you can't got wrong with kids toys at 4.99. Current Mood: Happy Happy Joy Joy.

had an awesome weekend even with the heat and the rain. watched blues clues all weekeend, went to the park and played, there are times that transcend reality and what's going on outdoors sometimes... when all you can see is potetional and not everything else...the weekend was full of energy and excitement over the littleest things... it was a blast and i may get a repeat this weekend ahead of schedule... nothing like a weekend like this to lightn ones spirits. Current mood: Happiness.

had a good weekend and we had fun, he won a nemo at the carnival..... i am finding out that i am only really living for the weekends these days... One year later after leaving university and i'm still in the emotional maelstrom i was a year ago... it seems there is nothing out there.. maybe it's time for another lifestyle change agian, hopefully i can get something for the summer and relocate. Current Mood: Distant.