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sitting and stewing...



It requires more courage to suffer than to die,
Napoleon Bonaparte


sitting around studying... everything is about to change within a week.. i have successfully kept my anger under wraps but this time i am ready for full fledged war.. this summer is gonna end up being very fucking interesting... only the caustious general picks his battles.. it's time to start breaking some of the rules.. after all i'm not the only one that does... i won't miss windsor... and it looks like niagra is where' it's at... there's something important there... it means more than both generals personailtys and their clashes... your conspircacy of silence will only hurt you and him in the end.
you can hurt me now but i'm not giving up or dying away... read the quote.
in the long run you only hurt that which is most important... and my headspace will be fine.. once i wrap it around you. so i've been listening to 977 htz fm on the interweb lately.. gotta get back into old habits...trying to think of where i want to live and what i want to do for the next 5 years... always had a plan not sure where i'm going right now... with all the bullshit and games, go figure.. i'll work it out... all i know for sure.. Is there is no going back to what used to be.


Current Mood: optimistic yet pissed off by the weekends turn of events.
Current Music:Van Halen, You Really Got Me.

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