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Leos....



why are all the women in my life that i end up having long term relationships Leo's?
i'm pretty fucking sure Leo's and virgo's are physcially, emotionally, and intellucually incompatibatable but i love them anyways.... ridiculous... maybe i should read some astrology to see why both of the long term girls have ended disatrously .. it's gotta be something in the stars.. i used to belive in fate and soulmates but now i'm not so sure.. on the other hand.. it's funny.. on the 13th i was too busy thinking about the one with the the birthday coming up on the 22nd than the girl i left behind... i had almost forgotten that it was her birthday until someone mentioned it... but it did get me thinking.. both of the most important partners in my life since adolocence have been leo's... i wonder if there's a reason for that.. maybe god is mocking me... anyways.. no big deal.. i have things to do.. don't need to think about it forever... it's making my head hurt...

stupid job search people want me to keep looking in my feild meanwhile i'd rather just have a fucking job... gotta keep at it.. i'll get something eventually.

Current Mood: Driven.

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