Hess Village= Friday Night in Hell.

Act 1:
gotta love the drama when the first summer's heat comes down.... so here is a play by play.. i'm sitting around playing my guitar for shits and giggles and first a broad passes out drunk after her freinds are carrying her spread eagle for the world to see... defintly an omen of a good night... a bunch of cops, 2 fire trucks, and the abulance, gotta love the effects of roofies.

act 2:
the running man.
nothing like seeing a guy run like ben fucking johnson down hess st. only to get tackeld by 4 cops.. and then try to fight them off. yeah that's a battle yer not going to win. Do not pass go Do not collect 200$ Go directly to Barton Jail.

act 3:
hess village is closed off by 6 cruisers because the whole bar is involved in a fight?

i thought i had seen stupidity in st. catherines and windsor but this city takes the fucking cake... did i mention i only made 9 bucks... i'm still annoyed trying to find the right mix for housing... patience with so called freinds is lacking. i may take the little room behind the hair salon just so i can have peace of mine instead of the current insanity.

of course then agian.. i'm left with the one who shall not be named's Insanity for the next 14 years or so ain't i?

Current Mood: Hungry, broke, pissed off.
Current Music: Bif fucking naked, Let Down.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

The Remedy

I am reminded when I need someone how truly alone I am in this world. Because for as much as I am the constant and the shoulder to cry on. The same respect isn’t accorded to me, obviously. It hasn’t been in years. This is why I have never and will never need you. I don’t need anyone. Especially when I am fucking hurting over a lost freind. I hurt, I get to do that. I’m fine with that. I process and move on. I spend a couple days where I block out the world and keep going but I’m fine. I don’t accord anyone I don’t trust or respect the time of day. It’s not about who it is. I’ll willing burn a bridge im fucking standing on if it means I take you with me if I see you as my enemy. I’m on a quest for peace, anything that gets in the way of that or causes turmoil in my life can get the fuck out of my way or become ash, because I will go the fuck thru you. Affect my responsibilities in my life, I will accord the same respect you do to them, I don’t mind being a blunt instrum...

Respite on the Spitalfeilds.

I get to hurt, that’s my curse. I feel everything. And it never goes away. It doesn’t matter if it’s peace of strife. I always miss him. He’s always there buried not so deep inside. Along side that in my heart lies hope. But right now, the price is simply too high to have him in my life. I’m not good with authority or conditions. And attempting controlling me has very negative conquences. So yeah, I’ll be here waiting. I should not hurt this much. Or be this sad. But it’s a fucking pain that never goes away except when it is replaced by anger. And I’m trying to fight that emotion off because bad things happen when I’m angry. And thats my secret Cap, I’m always angry. It’s what controls the hulk inside me from taking out an entire city block. I deserved better. This wasn’t the life I was promised. This is for sure not the life I promised my son. That was taken away from me. I’m not to blame. But I’ll be damned if suffers like an adult the way I had to. I will always be here b...

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