Skip to main content

REST IN PEACE!!!


Celebrating my birthday today with a very special occasion... it's too bad my ex is still a cunt and i can't even see my little one thursday cuz we are back to playing wonderful games but i am strarting to consider him more than my employment... i need a break and i'm not going to kill myself or sacrifice the only true family i have for a job that is stressful.. it's time to take care of my own fucking kid not anyone elses esp. around birthdays and holiday times.. games are always played and i always rise above them like a grim reaper on a holy mission.... my patinece seems to wear thin at times but i know that i am the better person and she is just being petty and lame because it's all she can do anymore to get under my skin...of course i should be taking the little one to go see his first wrestling show tonight but it's probaly a good idea i don't.. she'd accuse me of corrupting his little mind... yeah because i watched Hulk hogan with my Dad and i turned out so fucking horrible... happy birthday to me.. 2 days late... thanks for the bullshit.

Current Mood: excited for WWE, pissed off at she who shall not be named.

And as I hung up the phone it occurred to me,
He'd grown up just like me.
My boy was just like me.


Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Respite on the Spitalfeilds.

I get to hurt, that’s my curse. I feel everything. And it never goes away. It doesn’t matter if it’s peace of strife. I always miss him. He’s always there buried not so deep inside. Along side that in my heart lies hope. But right now, the price is simply too high to have him in my life. I’m not good with authority or conditions.  And attempting controlling me has very negative conquences. So yeah, I’ll be here waiting. I should not hurt this much. Or be this sad. But it’s a fucking pain that never goes away except when it is replaced by anger. And I’m trying to fight that emotion off because bad things happen when I’m angry. And thats my secret Cap, I’m always angry. It’s what controls the hulk inside me from taking out an entire city block.  I deserved better. This wasn’t the life I was promised. This is for sure not the life I promised my son. That was taken away from me. I’m not to blame. But I’ll be damned if suffers like an adult the way I had to. I will always be here b...

The Sinner.

I make no Bones that I’m a bad person, and I’m someone who has made mistakes. I take pride in being the bad guy, the villain and most of all a willing sinner. I will take full responsibility for all the things I have done. It’s the one thing I didn’t do I was convicted on. But that was my choice, when I make the gates of St. Peter or the gates of hell I can be judged. After all I have a throne waiting. I hold no illusions as to where I’m headed. The thing is people like you will join me there. I’ll see you on the seventh layer reserved for betrayers. The sad part is that if you remained a fucking ghost I would not have had an issue with you. But you had to make it fucking personal. Father Time has a long memory, and I don’t forget anything. You have some serious skeletons rattling in your closet and I can destroy you. I’m already dead, I’ve already been killed. One shot, Boom. Children’s aid won. Nothing you or anyone else can do, can hurt me. You can only hurt those I care about. And ...