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The Hanged Man


One is starting to get the feeling that I need to find a new job and a new place to be in terms of my life... i have to apply for welfare around christmas because i am not getting shifts? i'm supposed to moving this month, this transient nature of this job is affecting me very personally and my son, i think it may be time to find something else in a hurry, it probaly doesn't help my self esteem or my mental health that someone left me a nasty fuck you letter when she quit, that's nice and professional, it's one thing to not like someone and their methods, opions etc. but when you unleash a personal attack without provocation that's ridiclous, no wonder i have lost faith in this carreer and this job... i would be better off with out it.. and i'm starting to think more and more about teaching and finding something else with my life... i do not need this shit month after month after month, i should not be wondering where my next meal or shift is coming from day after day, i should be not be waiting for it to end so i can go onto greener pastures...but then agian... that is the unforgiving bitch that is life.

Current Mood: Depressed.
One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure its worth watching.

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