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Empire.


I am pissed off by my own mistakes today, i need to make more careful decisions, it's not the end of the world but even tho i gave someone a good deal i feel i was taken advantage of to a high degree esp. if i was to replace both figures it would cost me over a hundred right now.. I need to stand firm when people are jackasses... i am an asshole i should be acting like one.. my good nature and the fact that I am a nice guy backfired on me today and while it's salvageable it's still a fucking piss off because I have to scrambler to deal with it... what's done is done No regrets but i will be carefully choosing who i let into my house to do a fucking business transaction with next time... i don't like being bullied into something i don't want.. hopefully they pay for themselves... bu i feel very fucking ripped off.. and it's not so much you stole from me it's the fact you stole from a child... Sometimes i fucking hate dealing with douche bag collectors... I was bullied into a deal i didn't want... and next time that won't happen. I need to make better decisions.... in all aspects of my life at this point.

Current Mood: Angry, Annoyed, Pissed off.
Current Music: Faster, Within temptation.
You are unwise to lower your defenses!

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