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The Big Push...

I am starting to move the chess pieces forward, there has been enough time for sitting on my ass and doing nothing nothing, while i currently have responsibilities and other outside interests, My number one and only true priority is my son, everything planned and every action has an exact reason for why i do them, and there is a move forward to each one... unfortunately it seems sometimes I am the only One that can Move forward without Direction, and people sit on their hands and asses without doing anything.... I am just as responsible as anyone, but after two years... there should be some fucking movement... It's time for me to be firm, it's time for me to get things done, there are no fucking excuses, there is no fucking reason for me to stop giving everyone everything I can, it's not me i give a damn about, that's not what the light at the end of the tunnel is... Never Stop Giving them Hell. I need to do the things that are right by me and my kid and every action done is towards that, even taking time off to let someone mourn, I have things placed and set into action, that's what i need to do, not want to do... Need to do there is no question about that.
it's Time to push forward.

Current Mood: Determined.
It is not our abilities that show what we truly are. It is our choices.

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