The War XII:War Zone V

I have nothing to fear any more from these people but the safety and security of people I care about, they have destroyed my life, i have lived as a nomad most of my life raising stakes and moving on has never been an issue for me... the fact is that one of the people here took a risk and took me in when no one else would and even members of my own family were not helping because of the internal family politics and my adversarial personality.. I will fight for my friends and family regardless.. and right now the lines are very fucking blurred... these fucking cocksuckers took my little boy away from me and destroyed my life and my true core family of two, i will not let them do it to anyone else i care about, i will fight them with all my knowledge, education and power. I am fucking scared right now, but i am pretty sure legally they are just as scared of me... at least this time they fucking came to my front door instead of the slow knife to the back, No escape, No surrender... With my dying breath I will fight.. So no one else has to.

Current mood: Anger, Hate.

For the enemy to be recognized and feared, he has to be in your home or on your doorstep.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Respite on the Spitalfeilds.

I get to hurt, that’s my curse. I feel everything. And it never goes away. It doesn’t matter if it’s peace of strife. I always miss him. He’s always there buried not so deep inside. Along side that in my heart lies hope. But right now, the price is simply too high to have him in my life. I’m not good with authority or conditions. And attempting controlling me has very negative conquences. So yeah, I’ll be here waiting. I should not hurt this much. Or be this sad. But it’s a fucking pain that never goes away except when it is replaced by anger. And I’m trying to fight that emotion off because bad things happen when I’m angry. And thats my secret Cap, I’m always angry. It’s what controls the hulk inside me from taking out an entire city block. I deserved better. This wasn’t the life I was promised. This is for sure not the life I promised my son. That was taken away from me. I’m not to blame. But I’ll be damned if suffers like an adult the way I had to. I will always be here b...

The Sinner.

I make no Bones that I’m a bad person, and I’m someone who has made mistakes. I take pride in being the bad guy, the villain and most of all a willing sinner. I will take full responsibility for all the things I have done. It’s the one thing I didn’t do I was convicted on. But that was my choice, when I make the gates of St. Peter or the gates of hell I can be judged. After all I have a throne waiting. I hold no illusions as to where I’m headed. The thing is people like you will join me there. I’ll see you on the seventh layer reserved for betrayers. The sad part is that if you remained a fucking ghost I would not have had an issue with you. But you had to make it fucking personal. Father Time has a long memory, and I don’t forget anything. You have some serious skeletons rattling in your closet and I can destroy you. I’m already dead, I’ve already been killed. One shot, Boom. Children’s aid won. Nothing you or anyone else can do, can hurt me. You can only hurt those I care about. And ...

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