Shattered Glass: The End.

When someone puts an end to something, it doesn't mean that he gave up, it means that thing is not taking him anywhere.

It's better to burn out than to fade away.

This is It, there is a reality that this adventure is going to be over soon, Long after I have become bitter and have lost any semblance of interest in the entire process, it had it's moments both good and bad, and above and beyond it was always fucking Interesting, but the reality is aside from a few things that i will place into a glass coffin and the things i choose to buy going forward, after the holidays there will be nothing left of it. as much as i want to claim that i care, truly I do not. all this ever was, Was a means to an end, And now it's ending but the other major concern in my life isn't. I will enjoy whats left but whatever is left over, including some of the important things because of moments, will be left to remember, Hopefully there will be a few things to stand and remember that this wasn't just a fools errand to survive, these things have to stand for something... I want a few left for him to know the last few years he wasn't forgotten, It had to stand for something, even it's just a meory that i didn't get to share with him He was with me every step along the way...I would not have had any of this without him.

Current Mood: Tired.
Current Music:Breaking Benjamin - Dance with the devil

If something cannot go on forever, it will stop

We will all have an end to this journey one day, some will have a great ending some will have it bad, but it’s the journey that they take that matters, in the end.

Sometimes, the embers are better then the campfire. It's strange, but it's true

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

The Remedy

I am reminded when I need someone how truly alone I am in this world. Because for as much as I am the constant and the shoulder to cry on. The same respect isn’t accorded to me, obviously. It hasn’t been in years. This is why I have never and will never need you. I don’t need anyone. Especially when I am fucking hurting over a lost freind. I hurt, I get to do that. I’m fine with that. I process and move on. I spend a couple days where I block out the world and keep going but I’m fine. I don’t accord anyone I don’t trust or respect the time of day. It’s not about who it is. I’ll willing burn a bridge im fucking standing on if it means I take you with me if I see you as my enemy. I’m on a quest for peace, anything that gets in the way of that or causes turmoil in my life can get the fuck out of my way or become ash, because I will go the fuck thru you. Affect my responsibilities in my life, I will accord the same respect you do to them, I don’t mind being a blunt instrum...

The Threat.

I an not a nice person. I am not polite or nice. I am scary and intimidating and I draw power from that fact. You fuck with the people I love and hurt them, I’m going to damage you in kind. I want people afraid of me. It means I’m respected. It means you’re intimidated. I would rather be horrifying damaged and leave with nothing if it gives me the power and the freedom to protect my friend’s and family. Keep in mind a man with nothing to lose once had everything slip thru his fingers. And I have no fucking problem being a threat, to you, to my enemies, to society. You name it. I simply don’t care. The best defence has always been to confront and attack whatever the source of the problem. It hasn’t always brought me victory but at some point it’s brought me peace knowing that I’ve never backed down or done anything to hurt anyone. Just responded to what has happened to me and the ones I love. You don’t want to be my enemy. It’s a bad place to be. And once you are marked as su...

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