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Back for War.

It is usually more important how a man meets his fate than what it is.

I don't need to Know or claim to Know what the next step, But I do know that it's fucking time to move forward and finish this game, and for that to fucking happen I need to be the one in the driver's seat, I need to be the fucking intimidating one and make sure everyone that's supposedly is on my side and not just giving it lip service... this is a battle than will define two lives and forever damage a third, regardless of the outcome...i can't just sit back and wait for things to end and trust that other people will be there standing for me, I need to and have to be proactive and make fucking sure that every thing is where it needs to be, I have to be the warrior i've always claimed to be, I don't care how fucking tired i have been, I have fucking resources it's time to put them into play and this fucking chess game. there's nothing left in my life to truly give me happiness until this is all over, while i am slowly rebuilding the pieces of my life and my fractured Psyche with the changes i have made in the last few years, I survived, I was able to weather out this storm and my life has fucking changed, I'm not the man I used to be, I wouldn't want to be him anymore, except there are parts of me that haven't changed, I just never imagined that the one that i would be standing against would be you, It took a long time to come to that realization, longer still to be ready to destroy you body and soul, because that's exactly what you've done to me... and Now everything's eventually going to be on the table... all the old family secrets on both sides and every thing we know about each other... it's all going come out, are you prepared for that, I know all of your fucking sins, then and now, and the One that I will never fucking ever forgive you for has nothing to do with me, that was your own fucking flawed decision, that's something you will have to fucking live with, but I'm more than fucking prepared to use it against you, you've used every thing else on me, But the worst betrayal was never mine, it's always been yours. it's time for you to answer, It's time for this to end, prepare for battle, prepare for War, I'm going to give you Hell. I'm still standing, I've went thru the flames and I'm a stronger man for it, and hopefully so will he be.. But you, There's no Retreat, No surrender. there is nothing left for you except for the burning fire of hate that you have taught me, it's time for you to Burn.3 months from today it's fucking time for judgement, yours and mine... and trust me, I will not be fucking backing down.

Current Mood: Angry, Determined.
Music: Tom Dice - A soldier for his country

We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell.

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