Skip to main content

The War LII

You can lose a lot of soldiers but still win the game.

As Expected, Today went no where. the only thing gained was we now understand each other, all the cards are on the table.... and you've played you're hand... I have not played all of mine... but i do know this.. I have nothing to fear from any of your so called surprises, there's nothing left for you to make me fear.... you are as transparent now as you are even going to be and we know the lay of the land... you will lose. I didn't need to hear you lying, but the cadence in your voice not only showed that you were afraid of the process but you are afraid of me.. so afraid that you are willing to lie to accomplish your own selfish wants and needs....The only thing that has changed in your character is that you know that you are losing and have changed tactics to appear more sympathetic to accomplish your own twisted desires. that story will unravel in court, 5 fucking years and you can't keep your story straight, so at the end of the game why not invent a new one.... the only thing that bother's me is the fact you have continued to lay this at his feet rather then your own. typical, why accept responsibility for anything, I would never expect that from you.. But you will have to realize one day he will realize the truth and every shred, every document will be provided to him for him to make his own decision. I don't want to be you on that day of judgement, the only one at this point that is ever really going to matter.. it's never been about you and I, it's always been about him, I've said before and I'll say it again, If he hates me Fine.... but I'm not the only one he's going to grow up to hate.. and the blame for that, will always lie on you, Not me. The only thing i want him to know is that i never, ever gave up fighting for him, even when things were at their darkest. The rest he will likely discover for himself.

Current Mood: Determined.

My demons are fate’s way of telling me I won’t escape unscathed.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.
Post a Comment
Read more

Respite on the Spitalfeilds.

I get to hurt, that’s my curse. I feel everything. And it never goes away. It doesn’t matter if it’s peace of strife. I always miss him. He’s always there buried not so deep inside. Along side that in my heart lies hope. But right now, the price is simply too high to have him in my life. I’m not good with authority or conditions.  And attempting controlling me has very negative conquences. So yeah, I’ll be here waiting. I should not hurt this much. Or be this sad. But it’s a fucking pain that never goes away except when it is replaced by anger. And I’m trying to fight that emotion off because bad things happen when I’m angry. And thats my secret Cap, I’m always angry. It’s what controls the hulk inside me from taking out an entire city block.  I deserved better. This wasn’t the life I was promised. This is for sure not the life I promised my son. That was taken away from me. I’m not to blame. But I’ll be damned if suffers like an adult the way I had to. I will always be here b...
Post a Comment
Read more

The Sinner.

I make no Bones that I’m a bad person, and I’m someone who has made mistakes. I take pride in being the bad guy, the villain and most of all a willing sinner. I will take full responsibility for all the things I have done. It’s the one thing I didn’t do I was convicted on. But that was my choice, when I make the gates of St. Peter or the gates of hell I can be judged. After all I have a throne waiting. I hold no illusions as to where I’m headed. The thing is people like you will join me there. I’ll see you on the seventh layer reserved for betrayers. The sad part is that if you remained a fucking ghost I would not have had an issue with you. But you had to make it fucking personal. Father Time has a long memory, and I don’t forget anything. You have some serious skeletons rattling in your closet and I can destroy you. I’m already dead, I’ve already been killed. One shot, Boom. Children’s aid won. Nothing you or anyone else can do, can hurt me. You can only hurt those I care about. And ...
Post a Comment
Read more