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Haunted 3.0

 


My life doesn’t suck. With or without my freinds I do epic things. That’s all I want to do with every member of my family, but that’s always going to be someone else’s choice. I’m just gonna do me.


I don’t need anyone, and those that I choose to spend my time with are enhanced by my life not dragged down by it. I do amazing fucking things. I don’t even think about it. I just do it. Because I can. 


I was interesting. I did things. I do things now. But I never went to school or the store or some of my more interesting long terms adventures for anyone else. I did those things for me. I’m still doing those things for me. I’m having fun. 


This isn’t where I expected to be at 50 but it’s still fun as fuck. And as long as I can be me. I’m gonna be me. No one else is needed. I have freinds and family that will ride or die to the end and everyone else is an afterthought.


Current Mood: happy.


If life has days, it also has nights. If there's light, there's dark,too.There's lots of fun things to do in the dark.

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