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I’ve led an interesting life. It hasn’t always been easy. But it’s always been interesting and I’ve done things that most people don’t do once in their lives and I do them

Multiple times, often in the same week. When I leave this world I will have no regrets and I will be able to say i led a good life. 


I’ve never hid from being the villain and the bad guy… I’ve always been one of the more interesting characters in people lives.. because one thing I certainly know is that I don’t put down roots or have stabilty, I’m a passing moment in anyones life. There are only two I am or will ever be the constant in. And sone days even to them I am the villain, these days I’m more likely to be the ghost however.


Waxing poetic about the bad old years is always a dangerous place for me to go to. Those were my wild years. It’s a place I don’t live anymore. But there is nothing there for me anymore. It may appear I’m more out of control than I was then but the truth is everything I do now is carefully planned and never done on impulse. 


I don’t have patience for a lot of people in this world and the more I see of some people in this world I lose even more interest about what the world Is becoming. A gentle face hiding a dirtbag personality is still someone who is trash. Im done apologizing for being the villain. At least at the end of the day I’m honest about who I am. 

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