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Burn-E.


today is an awesome day, even when yesterday went south because of work related issues and my own stupidity and another person's lack of common sense at least when push comes to shove and things get royally Fubared, people come thru for me and him. i am sorry to those people for being the grinch this week, being away from my son and having a miserable job and very little social interaction outside of work with anyone because i don't live here and anyone i am really freinds with here either has moved on or i choose to associate with them only a specific times. sometimes you have to take a step back from the anger and your own misplaced emotions to relaize you aren't the only person out there, i was hurting and i lashed out and it was wrong.

that being said, ther eis a good chance i'm moving back to brantford now and it makes sense since the stupidity's of yesterdays commute, esp. if i can get this apt. i want in west brant, but obviously i need to deal with some of the flooding level bullshit at work first, but i might rent this apt asap if i can get it.

current mood: Happy Happy, Happy!!! he's being quiet and well behaved.

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