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Queen of the Reich V

the patience level for everything that has happened this year and certain people involved in the case are completely NIL. I should be looking forward to the new year with anticipation for the holidays instead of dreading spending any time with anyone because a significant part of my soul and personality is missing, I'm sick of the fact that someone thinks so highly of her self and so low of me that she has to treat a child like a possession and play dangerous games just to destroy me. What doesn't kill me will make me stronger, and you probably should not injure what you cannot kill. I am once again stuck under multitudes of legal nonsense and red tape that accomplishes nothing in the end, because this will happen again and again and again, i just wish he didn't need to suffer through it as much as he has... it's never been about me and you, it's never going to be about me and you... the day you realize is the day you will realize what you have left behind... and the longer you play games esp. with the legal system and the child welfare system is going to create a paper trail, and one day I will show him.... and he will understand... and hate you for it... because i am never fucking going away.

Current Mood: Angry.
None of you understand. I'm not locked up in here with you. You're locked up in here with me.

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