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Looking Back in Anger II.

The chaos to this move is almost over and the next step is around the corner, But i cannot say i am happy due to the current turn of events... threats and intimidation are never a way to deal with me, I may not react but i will let it simmer...i will remeber it... it's bullshit how things turned out and while i understand her reasons i also find them unfair and unjust, i should have had till the end of the month but of course games have been played in terms of them for some time.. i had an option to make a full exit when i was on vacation back in July the reality is that is probaly when i should have made a decision to exit and do something else with my life.. at this point i just feel lost and angry.... I can see where some of the issues started and i can see the fact that some of the issues would have been dealt with by me making a final exit in the summer... now i venture on into the great unknown due to someone else's issues and lack of respect of tenant rights or basic human respect... I don't trust anyone anymore.. nothing like wasting three years into making a house a home to have a knife in the back...

Current Mood: Anger.
No man can think clearly when his fists are
clenched.


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