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Check and Mate.

Even tho i have been having a rough week, I am aware that things are changing and the ball is in my corner... it's telling when certain people aren't even part of the equation anymore because the authorities know that she will destroy their case... and you wanna know something else? I have been fighting the system since the day i was born, it is one of the reason i choose my career... while i Might be afraid of the battle with her, One thing i have never fucking feared is the System, they raised me I know all of their lies and tricks... and I know how to beat them at their own game, there is only so long they can hide behind paperwork that doesn't exist... there will be a reckoning and it is coming soon... tick tock.. can't stop the clock... but I have No fear going forward... there are no games that can be played and No more stalling... I have never had any respect for the system even when i worked inside it... maybe i will end up changing things with the next step or maybe i will just be on step closer to vindication, either way... all i need to do is just follow my current path.. check and mate motherfuckers... beating the system is the first step to defeating her. and I know that i will win both battles, both games of reality chess, because this battle has never been about me and her, or me and the system, this battle has only ever been about him.

Current Mood: Determined.
Current Music: Eminem, Mockingbird.
What was silent in the father speaks in the son, and often I found in the son the unveiled secret of the father. ~Friedrich Nietzsche

If the relationship of father to son could really be reduced to biology, the whole earth would blaze with the glory of fathers and sons.

Every son quotes his father, in words and in deeds.

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