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Red Skull Redux

Enjoy what you may have percived as a little victory today, I have no problem when some Judge decides to go all firestorm and brimstone on me, I know justice is blind, but i'm not stupid enough to not know some judge's are biased and some judges are assholes... it's about playing the game and who holds all the cards.... I hope today you felt some fear because you fucking deserved it. I had nothing but rage.... but then agian.. an innocent man is allowed to be angry and have that rage.. esp. when that is all that feeds his all too often empty soul... you destroyed me... I am a hollow shell of the man i used to be, but in being destroyed in fire means I will come back even stronger... while i have been forever changed by every one of your actions at this point there is an endgame.. one i think you do not hold the cards for... the chess game is ending... Justice may be blind but the people controlling it are not... you are an idiot to think this can continue forever... it will not...the game of chess is down to it's last peices and both of us are bleeding from the battle... the diffrence is i will gladly bleed... it's not my soul or my heart on the line... it's the last little bit of white light i have left in my life... this has always been about one thing... a true battle for the little man's soul, i refuse to belive that you hate me so much that you have let this myth perpetuate for almost 3 years.. but then agian I know you and your black fucking soul... destroying a man is in you nature... I might as well call you Shiva, Destroyer of worlds.. you knew how to play that card well, but what happens when that same happenstance is projected on you... will you be strong enough to fight or accept the judgement that is coming... I know good or bad, win or lose, die, fail or live.. i can accept whatever the fucking answer at the end of this road is.. and regardless i will never ever stop fighting for his soul.. i can wait a long time.. there is only 7 1/2 years till he is 18 and only a year and half till he can speak for himself.. things i ensured today may make that time even closer... I guess i have to thank you tho.. you are the person who could teach me hate... the only person that could have done that... as much as i wanted to i couldn't break my ethical boundries today, because i am a good man inside and that has never changed despite anything you have had to say.. but i wanted to today, I could have today, and i would not have regretted it.. but that is me going down to your level, that is me being as bad as you, i'll let you own patheticness drag you down down to the level you are already at... because I will always fucking be here standing tall, never backing down, never comprimising...If your world has to be destroyed, so be it... You've already taken mine away... there's nothing left.. only him, that's the only battle. I have no doubts about my future, I'm still here, not in windsor, not in Vancouver, not stateside, not dead. I am right where i am supposed to be... between you and him forever.

Current Mood: Rage, Anger, Hate.

This was never my world
you took the angel away
I'd kill myself to make everybody pay

Now I am become Death, the destroyer of worlds

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