Age of Extinction II: Junkion

So all the piles of fucking garbage are gone and I am one step closer to divorcing myself from this mess of an income the last year has wraught, it has served it's purpose but it is time for it to be done, the fact that while yesterday payment was upfront and apprecited it clouded over the fact that other payment's are still owing which is a fucking joke... it's all about what the hell can you do for me lately, and it no longer serves my purposes minus the last big payout in a week or so... there are too many smoke and mirror games going on and I am still feeling very much taken advantage of and it's time for me to focus on the things that are important i have a war and a battle to fight and this is becoming more of distraction, I have real issues that are taking precidence, and they are frustrating as well.. i mean some so called cop has PTSD? What the fuck have my last few years been? I mean I grew up in the system in a warzone... and because of some fake and pathetic people in the system and this cop my life has been destroyed, i'm sure that fucking pig is not the only only one with post traumatic stress syndrome... he's not the only one that's seen war.. in fact I am quite fucking sure I have seen more of it... karma's a bitch and it will help my situation but it's still annoying that they managed to destroy my life so completely that only now we are reaching the end of it...

Current Mood: Pissed Off.
I come in peace. I didn't bring artillery. But I'm pleading with you, with tears in my eyes: if you fuck with me I'll kill you all.

Enemies,' the wizard said, 'are the price of honour.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Respite on the Spitalfeilds.

I get to hurt, that’s my curse. I feel everything. And it never goes away. It doesn’t matter if it’s peace of strife. I always miss him. He’s always there buried not so deep inside. Along side that in my heart lies hope. But right now, the price is simply too high to have him in my life. I’m not good with authority or conditions. And attempting controlling me has very negative conquences. So yeah, I’ll be here waiting. I should not hurt this much. Or be this sad. But it’s a fucking pain that never goes away except when it is replaced by anger. And I’m trying to fight that emotion off because bad things happen when I’m angry. And thats my secret Cap, I’m always angry. It’s what controls the hulk inside me from taking out an entire city block. I deserved better. This wasn’t the life I was promised. This is for sure not the life I promised my son. That was taken away from me. I’m not to blame. But I’ll be damned if suffers like an adult the way I had to. I will always be here b...

The Sinner.

I make no Bones that I’m a bad person, and I’m someone who has made mistakes. I take pride in being the bad guy, the villain and most of all a willing sinner. I will take full responsibility for all the things I have done. It’s the one thing I didn’t do I was convicted on. But that was my choice, when I make the gates of St. Peter or the gates of hell I can be judged. After all I have a throne waiting. I hold no illusions as to where I’m headed. The thing is people like you will join me there. I’ll see you on the seventh layer reserved for betrayers. The sad part is that if you remained a fucking ghost I would not have had an issue with you. But you had to make it fucking personal. Father Time has a long memory, and I don’t forget anything. You have some serious skeletons rattling in your closet and I can destroy you. I’m already dead, I’ve already been killed. One shot, Boom. Children’s aid won. Nothing you or anyone else can do, can hurt me. You can only hurt those I care about. And ...

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