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Never compromise. Not even in the face of Armageddon.

Your responsibility to be ready for the fight, never ends.

You know regardless of anything else in my life, there is the fact that I don't back down and i won't leave a fight half finished.. I will see it thru to the end... i don't even know anything more but the battle and this war.. i don't know or understand how to stand down when the battle is half over and I can go back to a somewhat normal state of being.. my defense mechanism's are still in full effect and regardless of everything i think I'm still looking over my shoulder expecting another attack to destroy me.. even tho she stands on vapour trails the only way i will ever know peace is to see this thru to the end.. because there has to be an end.. someday. Three years of fighting, and what do i have? at least i've had some good experiences and oppurtuinities but it seems like i am trying to go back to someone i once was.. yet that person doesn't and has never existed, there has always only been the warrior, there always only been me... there has only been the battle and the scars... i can remember being happy but i don't know how to feel it anymore.. i'm moving forward yet somehow still standing still... i want to go back to my life.. but i know it is forever changed by another's actions... i need to see this thru to the bitter end and finish the fight... but i am having trouble adjusting to the reality of being a free man, I've been a prisoner for far too fucking long... it's nice to be a free man but it's even nicer knowing at this moment that i have the advantage in the battle... which shouldn't even be happening... I'm sick of fighting... but I'll fight until I'm six feet deep if that what it takes... there is no compromise. Not even in the face of Armageddon....never. and I've faced down Armageddon and survived... scarred but still standing, waiting for the last battle. the last moment in this war.. whenever the fucking thing comes.

Current Mood: Tired
Current Music: Asshole, Eminem.

The fight isn't over until you win.

It gives me strength to have somebody to fight for; I can never fight for myself, but, for others, I can kill.

Never contend with a man who has nothing to lose.

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