One Word: Vindication.

Everything comes to he who waits... and I have waited so very long for this moment.

And another Ending to a very long part of my life is over, and as much as i hate the system and the way it works, this is a beginning and obviously there is still one final ending to come because one battle does not mean this is over.. but it does give me some peace and possibly some finality... i do expect that this isn't going to be the end of this because there is some loose ends to deal with, but the hell of the last three years and the fact that you have destroyed everything else that was important to me to destroy the relationship i have with my son, well as of today that's no longer something you have destroyed, 3 and a half years of anger, hate and depression were worth it, one thing i am very glad is that i never made a decision to leave the province, i have thought about it, but the reality is as long as i have the responsibility of being a father and he's here.. I'm here... if he's not i will follow you to ends of the fucking earth to find him... you'd have to still kill me to be done with me.. but today i am feeling a lot less destroyed.. i do plan on being more aware and more of an activist for children's and parent's rights when i go back to work.. but for now i am just enjoying the moment and looking forward to what comes next.. because all there that is left is to finish the fucking war... and watch you lose.

Current Mood: Happy.

What is your idea of earthly happiness? To be vindicated in my own lifetime.

The only kinds of fights worth fighting are those you’re going to lose, because somebody has to fight them and lose and lose and lose until someday, somebody who believes as you do wins.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Respite on the Spitalfeilds.

I get to hurt, that’s my curse. I feel everything. And it never goes away. It doesn’t matter if it’s peace of strife. I always miss him. He’s always there buried not so deep inside. Along side that in my heart lies hope. But right now, the price is simply too high to have him in my life. I’m not good with authority or conditions. And attempting controlling me has very negative conquences. So yeah, I’ll be here waiting. I should not hurt this much. Or be this sad. But it’s a fucking pain that never goes away except when it is replaced by anger. And I’m trying to fight that emotion off because bad things happen when I’m angry. And thats my secret Cap, I’m always angry. It’s what controls the hulk inside me from taking out an entire city block. I deserved better. This wasn’t the life I was promised. This is for sure not the life I promised my son. That was taken away from me. I’m not to blame. But I’ll be damned if suffers like an adult the way I had to. I will always be here b...

The Sinner.

I make no Bones that I’m a bad person, and I’m someone who has made mistakes. I take pride in being the bad guy, the villain and most of all a willing sinner. I will take full responsibility for all the things I have done. It’s the one thing I didn’t do I was convicted on. But that was my choice, when I make the gates of St. Peter or the gates of hell I can be judged. After all I have a throne waiting. I hold no illusions as to where I’m headed. The thing is people like you will join me there. I’ll see you on the seventh layer reserved for betrayers. The sad part is that if you remained a fucking ghost I would not have had an issue with you. But you had to make it fucking personal. Father Time has a long memory, and I don’t forget anything. You have some serious skeletons rattling in your closet and I can destroy you. I’m already dead, I’ve already been killed. One shot, Boom. Children’s aid won. Nothing you or anyone else can do, can hurt me. You can only hurt those I care about. And ...

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