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.....Till All Are Gone! III: Necessary Evil.

It may be necessary temporarily to accept a lesser evil, but one must never label a necessary evil as good.

I seriously have to look at things from a mercenary attitude from this point onwards when it comes to the crap in the storage locker. today just paid the bills for the locker and i am really getting nothing out of it when all am i doing is keeping this crap warm in a locker and in storage. there comes a point when i wonder how much it's worth doing anything with any of this crap... it has become very clear that i need to definelty protect myself at some point by dealing with one or two of the big shows and recoup my losses and walk away,the fact the things i am selling now are things i would have preffered to keep for myself but because i need the cash I am trying to move the items, of course the fact that i have a new home away from all of the politics and bullshit of the last two years helps, it's a new start and a place to escape the stockpile hoards of junk. the locker is fine for all of that crap, but it something that honestly has seen its time past, i will keep a handful of things that were bought for my son, but giving up one of his xmas gifts from his aunt, (one of his first transformers to make a sale bothered me today, and what was the sale for? to pay the fucking locker, something that has never been my responsibilty yet because I'm the only one that seems to still be standing or gives a damn about this crap, its not about the single figure because that's something easily replaced over and over agian by a multitude, but it's about the entire fact that I have been left with this ginorumous pile of crap that ceased to truly make a profit months ago, and the things i have lost are just as expensive as the things i have gained.. yes, for a while it was a Necessary evil, no it's no longer fucking Necessary and at this point I am starting to think that it is getting int he way of other interests and things i should be doing. it's time to go back to work, it's time to go back to being me, yes this was an interesting hobbby and it led to interesting things but i Look back at the last two years of my life and realize i have earned nothing from it save the fact that it has prevented a few legal bills from becoming astronomicly insane, I have lost many things to other people's greed and theievery and i am left with some unique things that I might make a profit from but it trickles down like a joke and barely justifies itself anymore... every moment in every day that ticks by I lose another minute of my little boys childhood and to be honest that's the only reason i had any toys to begin with, so it bothers me that money that could be going elsewhere is being used simply to occupy space every month, by the summer the end will be complete... everything will be gone. even if i have to fucking do it alone.

Current Mood: Depressed.

The mediation by the serpent was necessary. Evil can seduce man, but cannot become man.

The world is the best of all possible worlds, and everything in it is a necessary evil.

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