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The Purge: 2015 Edition.

You will probably find, in life, that successes and victories tend to overshadow the risks you took, while failure will amplify how idiotic they were.

I don't like the idea of going to home to deal with this crap... it has top be done but the last few months have been a nice distraction from the fact that i have a locker full of plastic garbage that has overtaken my soul, there are other reason to spend the rest of this month at home and deal with things but I am trying to avoid the fact that for the next week i will be rushing to get stuff packed and done so that I can get a few bucks in my pocket and hopefully not take a complete fucking bath at this stupid shit show i should have walked away from a year ago.. Now I have no choice, once everything Is gone.. Hopefully next weekend I will be fucking happy, better than that, I will be Fucking Done. I have put three years into this thing and have seen a lot of fucking people for what they truly are and I know that certain people in this business i don't want to associate myself with any longer than I have to, But it has served a purpose and i'm fine with that, I'm fine with keeping or using what's left over, and I'm fine with the best part, the fact that all this has been about is about the right reasons and not the wrong ones... it will bother me a little that I had all these cool things that my little guy will only see a small sampling of because I will try to keep the cool things left over, But the true and sad fact is that the whole experience that was at one point really cool and interesting to me will be mostly done after this weekend and/or in September.

Current Mood: Determined.
Current Music: Iced Earth, Anthem

All you can do is try to believe that tomorrow will be what it should be- even if it isn't what you expected.

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