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Helloween II

Person 1: Stay back....I have a demon inside of me.

Person 2: Let me get closer...I have a hell inside me where your demons can live.

Another Dark Halloween that I am not happy about, it's a very dark place I am in right now when i should be fucking happier than I am. All of my accomplishments all that i ever worked for, those fucking things ring hollow when something simple as going trick or treating with my eleven year old are fucking denied me... i can always hope for next year, but even that is starting to ring hollow when All i have left is the fucking battle. you have no idea of the hell inside my soul that you have caused, and continue to do so. One day all this will end. One way or another. Another day that should be a lot less dark than it currently is.... a day i fought for... something for me and Him.

Current Mood: Sad, Dark.
Current Music: Within temptation, A Demon's Fate

Why wear a mask on halloween if you wear one every day?

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