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The Last Stand.

Anyone who isn't with me opposes me, and anyone who isn't working with me is actually working against me.

A strong person is not the one who doesn't cry. A strong person is one who is quiet and sheds tears for a moment, and then picks up his sword and fights again..

I don't have the time or the fucking patience for anyone In this life whether they be mentor, Friend, Acquaintance or Lawyer to be actively working against me. I have stood and fought too Long to care if someone Has my back or not.. For far too long those that i thought had my fucking back, Only really waited for a time to Stab me in the back, I Don't have fucking time for people like that, There are too many fucking questions due to the last fucking month that have been left answered, i have no illusions anymore about anything or anyone, i know for that people That supposedly have my back are actively working agianst me and my wishes and mine and my son's best interests... these fucking days that's the only agenda I have is that, And if you get in my fucking way i will remove you, Stand with me, Stand Agianst me or stand Aside. There is No Middle ground, Anyone I don't need in my fucking life or i feel is fucking detremenetal to this battle I have to fight will cast aside, I have taken gasoline and burned bridges with people that have meant everything to me in this life, I have no fucking patience for people that have only come into my life as a result of this battle, i will see those people out of my life sooner than i can flick the fucking match, I would rather stand alone and know exactly what i am fighting for than dealing with a number of fucking politicians that only cover their own ass and their own agenda's. there is only one agenda that needs to be served here, Mine.

Current Mood: Angry, Determined.
Current Music: Pantera - Walk

Standing alone doesn't mean I am alone. It means I'm strong enough to handle things my way.

I NEVER felt powerful in a group. I always felt stronger standing alone.

Standing alone is better than standing with people who hurt you.

Stand up for something, even if it means standing alone. Because often times, the one who flys solo has the strongest wings.

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