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The War LII: Time for War.

Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.

And one battle looks much like another when you survey the corpses after.

It's time for an Ending, there's nothing left but the ending... I'm going to meet you on the battlefield next week and there will not be any quarter, there will be no mercy, No remorse, everything for the past 5 years and the last fifteen will be laid bare.. I'm prepared to be bared naked and flayed to the bone in a courthouse, can you truly say the same... there is only one thing in this world i truly fear, and you are not part of that equation, you ever have been... but let's do this.. let's end this... I'm going to respond in kind and i will not feel any sympathy for my actions, it's all going to be out there.. and I already know how the chess game ends.. you are predictable and you are yourself.. all i need to do is be patient and prepared and this is how the story ends... we are at the fucking end game, Give me all that you got... I'm prepared to do the exact same thing.. we will see who rises from the ashes when it's all over and said and done... come at me, I'll give you the same. let's end this.. let's finally give our little guy some peace, you aren't the girl i used to know, but you and I both know that we want this to be done, no matter the outcome... he deserves an ending, he deserves that peace, but you and I both know that Will not happen as long as we remain Unresolved, and that's on you. I'll never abandon the fight for him, but I'm not the one that has the willingness to fight anymore.. I'm just not willing to Surrender or ever give up on my son, he needs to know that, I'm not and never have been in the one in the wrong, and I'm not the one hiding behind the system, I'm the one fighting it, and when it is all said and done and he has questions, there will be paper and books and facts for him to make his own decisions and judge accordingly, he will make his own judgement.. and while he may have been trained to hate me, when he has everything, i don't care if he hates me, because I know I won't be alone.. you'll have to live with that, maybe not tomorrow, maybe not next week, but one day that day will come, and while i won't have all the answers, I will have some.. and I will have this battle to tell him stories about, Win or lose. put that into your preparations and calculations for next week. I have.

Let's End This.

Current Mood: Determined, Afraid, Angry
Current Music: Kid Rock - Only God Knows Why

Bran thought about it. 'Can a man still be brave if he's afraid?'
'That is the only time a man can be brave,' his father told him.

The single greatest advantage anyone can take into any battle is hope.

That's the way all life's battles are won.. You don't look at the overall picture. You take one step, then another, and another... until you arrive at your destination.

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