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The Chess Game VI

A waiting person is a patient person. The word patience means the willingness to stay where we are and live the situation out to the full in the belief that something hidden there will manifest itself to us.

Its almost over regardless of the next step. there is only so many chess moves left, i have no expectations that anything will change but im going thru the motions, the last move is checkmate not the stalemate that i have endured the last six fucking years.. it's just a matter of how we get there.. but the game has only started to end, but this time.. i have to make the right moves. it may feel like a pain in the ass, and it may causese some hardship at a time of the year when i have fucking nothing.. but thats all part of her plan, and its something i can use.. i just have to play ball one last time.. and let her manipulate herself into a corner. shes very good at that.. and it works to my advantage.. i just have to end the game.. and the end is near.

Current Mood: Determined.

You remember the stories John use to tell us about the the three chinamen playing Fantan? This guy runs up to them and says, "Hey, the world's coming to an end!" and the first one says, "Well, I best go to the mission and pray," and the second one says, "Well, hell, I'm gonna go and buy me a case of Mezcal and six whores," and the third one says "Well, I'm gonna finish the game." I shall finish the game, Doc.
William H. Bonney

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