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Umbra.



A hero will sacrifice the person they love to save the world, but a villain will sacrifice the world to save the person they love most.


Things haven’t changed. I don’t care if your extended family or not. It doesn’t matter where  I stand with her and more importantly him. You attack or cause my family strife, I’m still here in the shadow. And I am still the fucking villain, and I am still the darkness within the fucking shadows. The darkness within me is dormant not dead. And if you hurt one of them, especially my most precious blood, expect me to spill yours. I’ve never faded away permanently, I’ve just tried to be the ghost and the shadow to protect that which I care about most. But if needed the warrior and the demon still lies within. And this demon still has some teeth.


Ive been a shadow presence the entire time of my sons life and there are things I need to think about and evaluate very carefully. But if I need to I can be the wrath of god, and I wont come alone. 


I will always be here. I will always have your back. Even if it’s thru gritted teeth. He is my most precious blood and you are his mother. I will protect you.


I will always be your shadow. Even if it means I’m the villain and the demon. 

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