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Season of Mists.


Realizations don't come easy, a broader world out there than i know. while i may be standing still and effectively desire a static exsistance, this is not true of other's involved on the peripheral of my life, their worlds have changed and i am like ragnorok involving myself into that existance. I have no right. It is often better to do nothing rather that to risk harming another. i will keep on my chosen path until the time that in which i will find light agian, besides i kinda of like my darkness, it's protective and it is the one thing other than my little light that i can say is truly mine and no one can ever take away from me, confusing as it is.as usual i dealt with things in the least positive way, wandering the brow and finishing off screwdrivers.. but at least i am dealing, i'd rather harm oneself than harm anyone else... and besides i have the freedom to do whatever I want as my actions do not affect another becuase sincerly there is no to share it with anymore.. far to much time has past and too much about me, you and the rest of the universe has changed.

It seemed like the night sucked them up, took them into its dark heart. It seemed like the darkness swallowed them... Perhaps it did.

Current Mood: At peace with whatever that Is.
Current Music: Kittie, Look So Pretty.

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