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Full Circle II

Its interesting how one can go thru so many trials and tribulations in life and be so miserable in most of the the things that he has achieved but something made and meant in childhood comes backs 20 years on and instead of haunting him its the best thing that happens to him in his life, i dont know how long this feeling is going to last or how longs things will be exactly as the are, but for the moment im content, things may change things may improve but right now this is a little something that brings me happiness once in a while and there aint nothing wrong with it... whatever the hell it is... this is why i left Hamilton, this is why i am educated, this is why i can go anywhere i want within reason in Ontario, because i have options and choices, sometimes things require pateince and sometimes things are just what they are, but i feel the right person got my poetry books because she knows the inner workings of my soul both the light and dark places, and it was time for me to let everything in those books go.

Current Mood: Loved.
Current Music: Metallica, Fade to Black.
What greater thing is there for human souls than to feel that they are joined for life - to be with each other in silent unspeakable memories

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