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Two Faced.

My boss is making a very difficult decision slighty easier by constantly treating me like shit at the end of a graveyard shift and yelling at me and bitching about things that arent my responsibility but instead the day staff responsibility, but of course anyone taking responsibilty at the organization would be a minor miracle... its all about money and nothing about the clients, i am curently unhappy but after this weekend its pretty clear i have some real options and when even people at work are encouraging me to follow them because i appear more happy when ive spent a weekend away or had my freinds and family around me for the weekend, its time for some tough choices, of course another fact i am becoming glaringly aware of of is that the day i leave the organization i will be sending a letter to the childrens advocate and that this is something that current management fears, it would probaly cost them too much money to lay me off and or fire me. should be interesting to see what happens when i leave for vacation in the summer. i might just decide not to come back.

Current Mood: Frustated.
You must not allow yourself to dwell for a single moment on any kind of negative thought.

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