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Queen of the Reich IV

Things are finally moving forward... sometime this week you got served and i have some very good fucking ammuniotion in my bullets should i need to put you down... it's very interesting and telling when i have confirmed earlier suspicions of you cheating back when we were trying to conceieve but of course it's not like you ever knew how to close your legs... but the mistake you made wasn't so much with me... but having a lose end out there that you done the exact same thing as you have done to me out there.. the worse crime about that was he took responibilty and went up to the plate and it wasn't his son.. and you knew that, probaly during the preganancy and definitly after our child was born, but still you led him on... that's pretty fucking low... there is no question and has never been any question that kid is mine and even in your addeled alcoholic control freak mind you must have been able to see that... but of course needing a good father figure role modelis what you needed.. because me in university chasing a bachelor of social work wasn't enough... you hadn't damaged me enough... you had to completely destroy me eventually... i wonder how much of the last 11 years you have coldly calculated...i don't belive anythign you do is random i think everything you do is calculated and has a reason..same as me...i just don't have the cold hearted self preservationist streak that you do... it's not about me.. it's never about me... but if you're going to play in the gutter with my past history that at one point i did trust you with... i'll see you in the sewer....your skeletons are just as dirty as mine and more recent..You can't destroy what you can't kill and i will be standing here, alone...always... the one thing that prevents you from total control..you have tried to destroy me.. first youtook my education... i can deal with that, then you took my son, we dealt with that... then this time you try and take my heart (my son.) and my soul (my career.). that's fine... we can play... i'm the nastiest player in the game...you know exactly where to carve the knife and it will show that our original relationship was second year of me at niagara college and that you did this because otherwise you had nothing, you used the goverment to your own advantage.. but here's a fun thing about growing up in the system, i know how to navigate the court part of the child protection system very well... i also know mine and his rights... i also know the likelyhood of you having a lawyer is almost nil... all of which will go to show that all you want to do is have me leave his life and because you couldn't do it legally through the court system you went and did it thru the child protection system, which is fine by me... if you're going to play in the gutter... i will meet you in the sewer...be preapared for war.

Current Mood: Determination.
There are years that ask questions and years that answer.

Sometimes you have to stand alone to prove that you can stand.

It is not what a lawyer tells me I may do; but what humanity, reason, and justice tell me I ought to do.

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