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Unforgiven VII

I am getting to a place where there is only one person, and that person is me...people that have never done anything for me are going to be cast to the wayside, i'm sick of dealing with asshole freinds who think because i am their friend that they can treat me the way they do and walk all over me, there are a lot fo fucking people out there that were never there... i do not have the fucking time to deal with their selfishness and immaturity, it's becoming very clear that some of these people never fucking knew me..and/or ever tried to know me, after a discusuion with one of my very best freinds i am really starting to examine options about the rest of my life.. there's a lot that need to be dealt with.. i have the bullets, i have the knives.. i'm sick of both my past and my present coming down to haunt me.... there's a lot more to me than whatever people see, there has been way to much manipulation of the system in my life and soon that battle is going to turn into a full scale war, but one of the things that is becoming very clear is that certian people need to be left on the wayside in my path of life... and if they won't leave me alone they need to be forgotten with extreme prejudice, there's a reason i have acted like the man with no name and a man without a past everywhere i have went.. some memories don't need to be remebered, some life experinces need to stay dead and buried in the past.. but some people won't let that happen. One may be the Unforgiven, but will never be forgotten.

Current mood: Angry.
Never explain yourself. Your friends don't need it and your enemies won't believe it.

A simple friend thinks the friendship over when you have an argument. A real friend knows that it's not a friendship until after you've had a fight.

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