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The Black Widow..


It has been over a fucking decade since i walked away from you,ten years.. you should have been dead and gone from my life then, You Have a Month to grieve But after that all of the fucking bets are off, yesterday was a slap in the fucking face, i have not fucking forgotten the fact that you have destroyed both my life, heart and Soul and My career... I should have be free of you in 2003, you're fucking choices back then and your decisions alone are your responsibility I should not be dealing with them ten years on... there is only one reason I do and that Is because of my strength of character and because I love that little boy... there are easier ways to destroy a man, but i told you a long time ago that i would never fucking walk away...I will not wear this albatross around my neck the rest of my life and You will have No quarter past this Month, I cannot forgive nor can I ever forget... I no longer have any Patience for you, you set this chain of events into place and created a place i cannot easily escape from, you destroyed me.. It would have been easier to just feed me a bullet... I will watch your castles crumble and I will laugh.... you have Reason's to Fear me of you're own making, and I will not shy from the fact that you do Fear me.. I will use it as careful intimidation, But there is No reason i will ever have to ever Fear you or anything that you have Done... Nor will I.

Current Mood: Angry.
Current Music: Eminem, Criminal "you're goddamn Right"
It's mercy, compassion, and forgiveness I lack. Not rationality.

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