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Looking Back in Anger IV:Retribution.

I am still fucking Angry, There are things Missing that should not be and a lack of a warranted response make's me think that this was planned and It is very confusing to see that someone I helped would do this to me, and take things i was saving for myself and my little boy, But then agian that's what selfish and vindictive people are like... I can be one too.. then agian i can seek retribution in several diffrent ways, my last month has been hell because of someone else's actions and decisions...if someone else want's to be mean and vindictive and a fucking theif i can sit there and stew and be very fucking angry, and go after you just has hard.. and i'm the forgotten man, right now I have nothing to lose... But you, you have so very fucking much to lose.. and the fact is i can contact your worse enemy and be a witness for him or for the people i cannot stand for one bit in this world and do so much damage to your personal life... but that would be the chess playing antics of a much lesser man, I'm better than you and i'm always going to be. I have real battles to fucking fight.. one you are not connected to anymore... I am only upset at my son's things being stolen, but as far as i am concerenced you are a non entity in my life.. i'm not a weak and pathetic person. I will get my belongings back... but AS far as I am concerened you are part of my past.. don't give me a fucking reason to look back and deal with people I don't want to know, I can and will make you're life hell. in 20 years i have lived on my own I have never had anyone steal from me, but you made the choice to... no wonder you are so pathetic, it's because you use people and throw them away... that's ok.. when and if you suffer, it wlll be from your bad decision's not mine... I'm done with your pathetic life and you're pathetic family...you were never part of mine.. I can and will hold my ex wife in higher esteem than you and i hate her with all my heart and soul but at least to my knowledge she has not stolen any of my child's things for personal use, that's the lowest thing i can think of for the most part.. and I have been low and I have seen the darkest parts of some woman's heart.. but you are even lower. as i said before there is a real fight in my life and you and you're fucking life and family are immaterial, I spend another christmas alone fighting this battle... but I do it alone, as I have always been... and that battle is more important than you're petty fucking theivery.

Current Mood: Angry.
immaterial
1. unimportant under the circumstances; irrelevant.

In this fight I have the most intolerant and vindictive enemies I have ever met and I have the largest majority on my side I have ever had and I am discussing the greatest issue I have ever discussed.


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