At War With the System...

If you want to control someone, all you have to do is to make them feel afraid.

One can judge the seriousness of a threat by the character and tenacity of its opposition.

The ones who hate me the most are the ones who don't scare me.

Do i look like someone who could ever be Intimidated or threatened? I'm the fucking threatening one, that's how that plays out, you don't come into my or my loved one's home and threaten me over something i have already proven to be innocent of, I have only one answer to that, and it is the threat of violence.. I have no question of that, you have taken the most Important person in my life away from me because of some selfish vindictive bitches nonsense and the fact that you can't deal with a fucking insane policy that anyone raised in care is damaged goods... But here's something... Yes the fucking system raised me... But guess what, The Children's Aid society of Toronto may have raised me but they also gave me a scholarship to go to school and were aware of exactly what i was going to do for a living... this is why when a fucking Podunk town like St. Catherine's or wherever decides to threaten me with their Children's aid's societies, it's a fucking joke and shows why these agencies need oversight and need to be accountable... because No one control's the hand if the finger's all act autonomously with no repressions... Child protection needs to be a fist, not a bunch of finger's playing piano... things need to be centralized and the rules need to apply to everyone not be picked and chosen for those that are deserving $$ and those that are not. I have not worked the last 20 years to have my career count for nothing... i will make change, i have no doubt of that, but I am not going to be threatened ever again by these mother fuckers in the system that's a fucking reality... I'm the one who is a threat, not them. you don't threaten me or my family ever, regardless of who they are.

Current Mood: Angry, Bitter.

Straightforwardness intimidates people. They prefer the veneer, despite what they claim.

There are two kinds of idiots - those who don't take action because they have received a threat, and those who think they are taking action because they have issued a threat.

I think, if you're going to kill a man, do it. Don't write him a letter about it. Don't bluster and threaten and put him on his guard.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Respite on the Spitalfeilds.

I get to hurt, that’s my curse. I feel everything. And it never goes away. It doesn’t matter if it’s peace of strife. I always miss him. He’s always there buried not so deep inside. Along side that in my heart lies hope. But right now, the price is simply too high to have him in my life. I’m not good with authority or conditions. And attempting controlling me has very negative conquences. So yeah, I’ll be here waiting. I should not hurt this much. Or be this sad. But it’s a fucking pain that never goes away except when it is replaced by anger. And I’m trying to fight that emotion off because bad things happen when I’m angry. And thats my secret Cap, I’m always angry. It’s what controls the hulk inside me from taking out an entire city block. I deserved better. This wasn’t the life I was promised. This is for sure not the life I promised my son. That was taken away from me. I’m not to blame. But I’ll be damned if suffers like an adult the way I had to. I will always be here b...

The Sinner.

I make no Bones that I’m a bad person, and I’m someone who has made mistakes. I take pride in being the bad guy, the villain and most of all a willing sinner. I will take full responsibility for all the things I have done. It’s the one thing I didn’t do I was convicted on. But that was my choice, when I make the gates of St. Peter or the gates of hell I can be judged. After all I have a throne waiting. I hold no illusions as to where I’m headed. The thing is people like you will join me there. I’ll see you on the seventh layer reserved for betrayers. The sad part is that if you remained a fucking ghost I would not have had an issue with you. But you had to make it fucking personal. Father Time has a long memory, and I don’t forget anything. You have some serious skeletons rattling in your closet and I can destroy you. I’m already dead, I’ve already been killed. One shot, Boom. Children’s aid won. Nothing you or anyone else can do, can hurt me. You can only hurt those I care about. And ...

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