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A Moment II




I may love you, but you aren’t my only priority right now in this life. And the come and go bullshit is something that I will never tolerate. I will just disappear no matter how much I love you and him. I made a vow to no longer fight with you. So there is no anger, there is no hate, there is just fade away.


You won our private battles. That moment is done. And the moment we need now, that’s on you when you are fucking ready. Not me. When and if you want me to come home you’ll make that phone call. Not before, and not for anything I’ve fucking done.


I’ll just be an emotional pretzel until that moment comes or I fade away forever. I’m not sure in this moment which one is preferable. I just know the outcome I fucking want.


The one I am silently fighting for.


I know my worth and I know I have a good life until I have you agian. Look at the whirlwind shit I am doing this week and I haven’t even gotten fucking started yet. I just wish you and my son were doing these things with me. I’ll always try. Until I can’t, but right now I can try.


My life doesn’t reach to you, and you’re decisions are you’re own. But one singular moment this weekend we might be on the same page. Let’s see what happens.

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