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Wizard of The Hood.



People and things change. This is a new adventure and I’m bound to make new freinds and enemies along the way. And old freinds and enemies are going to be jealous. That being said, do I look like I give a fuck? I have real world issues and concerns. This is something I’m doing for fun and to make things in this world a little easier for me. When the weight of the world is on your back, please come and cast the first stone…


But here’s one thing everyone needs to know. I don’t give a fuck. Beginning and end I do this to benefit me and only me. There is always a reason and always an agenda. 


Period.


I don’t work for free and I don’t have the patience for false promises esp when I have things that are more important that playing dress up. It’s not about that. It’s about enjoying myself and doing things. And the person that I am tied at the hip with being able to do things….


Those I care about are just as important to me as myself. And screwing me for the things he enjoys is frustrating. I will stop doing for everyone period. He can’t do a lot of things. I’m depressed and angry as a result because this isn’t the first time he’s been fucked around on plans and money. 


It will be the last time. I’m sick of doing for others and being taken advantage of. You don’t live behind the doors of my house and see how miserable it gets. If I’m reaching for escape what do you think my brother feels like trapped in a box? 

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