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Space Mountain!!!




I am happy. I do things. I don’t chase anything or anyone or push myself to be an overbearing presence in my life. I have plenty of things I do to enjoy my life and sometimes my distractions and hobbies are epic. I’d rather be the first person in the line for the nature boy and mike tyson than ever dwell on the fact that my life didn’t turn out great. You know what, it did. It just didn’t go as planned for a few years. And there are reasons for that. But there is no anger or no reason for nostalgia. Good things will happen in my life because I’m a good person and if something is meant to be it will be. For now I’m having fun and doing epic and legendary things. 


I’m gonna continue to do things and enjoy my life. Living well is the best revenge.


Jim Morrison once asked me something in a poem, I’m pretty sure the answer is yes. The good the bad and the ugly. It would make a pretty good movie.  And it still a good life. 


I just want to live it


The movie will begin in five moments

The mindless voice announced

All those unseated will await the next show


We filed slowly, languidly into the hall

The auditorium was vast and silent

As we seated and were darkened

The voice continued:


The program for this evening is not new

You've seen this entertainment through and through

You've seen your birth, your life and death

You might recall all of the rest

Did you have a good world when you died?

Enough to base a movie on?

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