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Scorched Earth



When I decide to burn a bridge I fucking dynamite it, there is no looking back or forgiveness because when I destroy something it stays destroyed. I don’t just burn the bridge I annihilate it. And i do it with no remorse and no regret. I’m a fucking Phoenix and always have been. I’m an agent of chaos not order and I destroy things it’s in my nature. When I choose to do it deliberately look out. There may be collateral damage, but at this point I don’t care or give a damn. There is already collateral damage on my side. It’s just karma if it affects someone else negatively too.


Burn it all down, I’ve always had a scorched earth policy because it’s easy to start over with nothing. Than to use people or even still have them in my life when I don’t like or respect them. Just gone and fire and burn. Napalm destroys everything. 


I only like or respect those that are good to me and have proved there loyalty when I have nothing to offer. When i feel used or am being used I will walk the fuck away without a second thought. I didn’t even want to bother with last weekend and I am definitely feeling used. But that’s absolutely fine. It’s a learning lesson and it’s a pathetic joke. I don’t need it in my life so it’s completely simple just to walk away completely. It’s not the first time in my life I’ve walked away from something I like and enjoy. It will not be the last fuckin time either I’m sure.


There are other issues and this whole thing is starting to become and anchor agian. The same way it used to a decade ago. When something stops being fun, it simply stops being done. I’ve been here before. I will be here agian. 


I have my own fucking battles to fight. I’m not fighting anyone else’s or being a target by your enemies and everyone you want to transfer your bullshit onto me and make me the bad guy. I’m fine with being the villian but only for my own purposes. It no longer fits into the plan for me to take the knives in the back when I have done nothing wrong except be guilty by association. 


I have enough issues and drama at home and with my family members in the falls to be bothering with anyone else’s selfishness and drama. Plus what I am dealing with it in my head. I’ve tried to be patient and nice but it’s no longer worth it and/or wanted. I’ll do what I always have done and move on and go my own way and I’ll be better for it. 


This is the way. It’s what is best for business and what’s best for my mental health. I’m sick of always doing the right thing for people that barely know my name. It’s time to do what is right for those that are actually close to me and care about my well being. Period. 

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