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Know your enemy II


It always surprises me when trust is a factor in my carrer that it is becoming a one way street, i am an afterthought when it comes to work, pays not in yet and i cannot continue to live like this hanging on to every fucking day until the paycheque comes in, it would be one thing if i had options or shifts coming out of my ass, but I need to pull out my firmly established roots and fuind something better to do, I am planning to fucking travel this summer and in a few weeks, if i'm not scheduled i'm going to windsor for a week and i'm gonna fuck off to toronto for a few days too, now that the nice weather is here ther eis no point in sitting around doing nothing all week waiting for that one shift just before i have my kid, i'm gonna make myself a little less availible, of course it seems like other options may present themselves soon so until then there is a good possibilty that i need to enjoy my life instead of being miserrable, because the only one making me miserable is me. I was happier when i had less... it's the choices i make and the fact that i have some sort of misguided loyalty that allows me to volunteer for bullshit always on call... i'm gonna start being unavailuble... rather than sitting at home all day doing nothing but watching 300 channels, and nothings on.

Current Mood: Depressed.
Current Music: Know your enemy, Green Day
God made everything out of nothing, but the nothingness shows through.

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